DO NOT DEFINE ME.
Friday, February 27, 2009
ii cudnt feel de love as much as b4 lerhhs.or mayb iim jux beiing too sensitive?
ii duno.
u said ur exams coming so ue cant meet often.
ii understand.
after exams ue said ue need a week off to rest
cos ue say everytime after exam ue need rest for a week.
ok ii understand.
BUT.
de day after exam ue go visit ur ex.
de next day ue say goiin out wiif ur kor to register bike
this call resting?
den ue still tell miie tat ue be workiing alot nxt week den wun meet much.
tiis call restiing?
who ue tryiing to kid?
or m ii readiing too much in it?
or ue jux being contridicting ? (ps duno how to spell)
iits been ages we so on a date.
its been ages we go out jux de two of us.
n it will oso be ages tat we be meetiing each other much.
so ii tot u will cherish every chance when we can meet.
example for today.
its true tat ii wanted to go tm alone at first.
but i tot tat ue will come pei miie cos ur kor haven wake up.
n ii diin even say tat ii wan ue peii miie lehhs.
ue jux straight away tiink tat ii wan ue peii miie
den iimmediiately say tat today ii veri tired dun wan go shop.
ok. EVEN iif ii really wan shop , ue still can treat it tat u meet miie
so tat ue can see me cos de chances of meeting up agn will be rare.
n iif ue are really tired den wat for go out iin de first place!
its not tat ii miind goiin out alone or wat.
ii really dun miind .
but u jux make miie tiink tat ue dun really wan meet lidat lehhx.
although ue wun tiink tat way laas.
but it leaves an impression tat iit is .
ii really cant feel tat love anymore ue noe ?
iim scared.
n ii really do love ue alot.
whye must ii make myself so miserable.
iim tiired too.
although de msges ue type to miie are still loviing .
but ur actions doesnt say so.
iim confused,
maybe out mindset iis really diiff.
are we wrong beiing tgt iin de first place?
ii hav my doubts.
n ii been contoliing my temper too lerhhs.
ii been my best controliing.
ytd ii was all soft spoken to ue
n mayb u iin a bad mood n shouted at me.
n iits not my fault lehs . its kor gor fault.
he make ue irritated not miie.
iif ue not feeling well den dun meet kor iin de 1st place ahhs.
n ii understand ue not feeliing well n ii guess ue dun feel like meeting
so ii tell kor dun meet lerhhs.
ii wan u to rest.
but in de end ue go meet another kor
n complain to miie tat he force ue play dota.
ii duno ue laas .
ii oso duno wat ue toking n doiin laas .
ii feel tat ii failing to understand ue anymore.
iim confused.
ii been working hard n studying tiis few weeks.
ii tiink iim gona collapse soon.
ii hav to handle so many emotions iin all directions.
n now iim really sick.
ytd while workiing iim haviing de hell paiin of my life
n de idiot customers all crowded iin all of a suddenly
n hav to run here run thr to serve them.
we are one man down ytd . huijie was suppose to work.
iim iin much paiin still hav to serve de hell lot of ppl.
when iim well den no customers.
when iim down , everybody come .
goiin against me ahhs .
den still hav some arguement wiif someone.
now make miie siick lerhhs laas .
wana rest de but today de last day of de month lerhhs.
getting pay soon so ii tiink tahan awhile more.
god bless miie alrights .
haiishhx.
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