DO NOT DEFINE ME.
Friday, February 27, 2009
ii cudnt feel de love as much as b4 lerhhs.or mayb iim jux beiing too sensitive?
ii duno.
u said ur exams coming so ue cant meet often.
ii understand.
after exams ue said ue need a week off to rest
cos ue say everytime after exam ue need rest for a week.
ok ii understand.
BUT.
de day after exam ue go visit ur ex.
de next day ue say goiin out wiif ur kor to register bike
this call resting?
den ue still tell miie tat ue be workiing alot nxt week den wun meet much.
tiis call restiing?
who ue tryiing to kid?
or m ii readiing too much in it?
or ue jux being contridicting ? (ps duno how to spell)
iits been ages we so on a date.
its been ages we go out jux de two of us.
n it will oso be ages tat we be meetiing each other much.
so ii tot u will cherish every chance when we can meet.
example for today.
its true tat ii wanted to go tm alone at first.
but i tot tat ue will come pei miie cos ur kor haven wake up.
n ii diin even say tat ii wan ue peii miie lehhs.
ue jux straight away tiink tat ii wan ue peii miie
den iimmediiately say tat today ii veri tired dun wan go shop.
ok. EVEN iif ii really wan shop , ue still can treat it tat u meet miie
so tat ue can see me cos de chances of meeting up agn will be rare.
n iif ue are really tired den wat for go out iin de first place!
its not tat ii miind goiin out alone or wat.
ii really dun miind .
but u jux make miie tiink tat ue dun really wan meet lidat lehhx.
although ue wun tiink tat way laas.
but it leaves an impression tat iit is .
ii really cant feel tat love anymore ue noe ?
iim scared.
n ii really do love ue alot.
whye must ii make myself so miserable.
iim tiired too.
although de msges ue type to miie are still loviing .
but ur actions doesnt say so.
iim confused,
maybe out mindset iis really diiff.
are we wrong beiing tgt iin de first place?
ii hav my doubts.
n ii been contoliing my temper too lerhhs.
ii been my best controliing.
ytd ii was all soft spoken to ue
n mayb u iin a bad mood n shouted at me.
n iits not my fault lehs . its kor gor fault.
he make ue irritated not miie.
iif ue not feeling well den dun meet kor iin de 1st place ahhs.
n ii understand ue not feeliing well n ii guess ue dun feel like meeting
so ii tell kor dun meet lerhhs.
ii wan u to rest.
but in de end ue go meet another kor
n complain to miie tat he force ue play dota.
ii duno ue laas .
ii oso duno wat ue toking n doiin laas .
ii feel tat ii failing to understand ue anymore.
iim confused.
ii been working hard n studying tiis few weeks.
ii tiink iim gona collapse soon.
ii hav to handle so many emotions iin all directions.
n now iim really sick.
ytd while workiing iim haviing de hell paiin of my life
n de idiot customers all crowded iin all of a suddenly
n hav to run here run thr to serve them.
we are one man down ytd . huijie was suppose to work.
iim iin much paiin still hav to serve de hell lot of ppl.
when iim well den no customers.
when iim down , everybody come .
goiin against me ahhs .
den still hav some arguement wiif someone.
now make miie siick lerhhs laas .
wana rest de but today de last day of de month lerhhs.
getting pay soon so ii tiink tahan awhile more.
god bless miie alrights .
haiishhx.
Labels: siick n tired
Sunday, February 15, 2009
today iis a normal day for kyo.went home straiight after sch.
watched a 'gay' show . &iits so funny(:
iit light up her day but someone ruin my day somehow.
anway . after bloggiing she'll be goiin off to bed.
siianx :x
alrights.
recollection of last week.
last frii after sch kyo went straight to work.
2pm till 10pm.
2pm till 10pm.
slp at 11plus12.
wake up at 5.30am.
she is suppose to meet up at vue studio but
instead kyo went to e traiiniing place.
iin de end late for de make up n styling.
maybe iits too early for her to be clear minded.
everythiing all blur blur.
cab to studio n de driver cant find de place.
makiing her later den before
n of cos. more expensive ;x
anyway....
when rch de studio she found out tat
almost everyone was late.
haha.
wat a relief for her(:
hmm .
kyo's theme was belly dancer&nighty white.
she loved de belly dancer outfit&styliing.
she totally look so diiff(:
kyo does learned alot tat day.
iits her fiirst tiime doiin a real catwalk.
iit is no surprise
tat she will hav butterflies iin her tummy.
but after de first walk
she start to gaiin her confidence.
one outfit needa walk 4 walks.
1 walk need pose 6 poses.
session 1.
10am to 12nnplus.
2 grps.
total 2 outfits x 8 walks x 2 grps
= 36 walks
36 walks x 6 poses
= 216 poses
minus de behind de scene poses.
rounding off to 300plus.
session 2.
12plus to 2plus 3.
ii tiink dun niid say lerhhs. haha.
by session 2 everyone iis worned out n lifeless
n moreover
de session 2 de photographers all very quiet too.
no comments no life so quiet.
make everyone more tired lookiing at them
n thnx colin for cuttiing short for de session 2
when seeiing everyone so tired.
but de photoshoot ended later den planned.
supposed to be 10am to 2pm
but it end at nearly 3pm.
but although iits very tiriing .
we diid enjoyed ourselves(:
much thnx to renee&racheal (mua&stylist)
de backlight guy & colin de commander.
haha! ii tiink colin iis more nervous den we are.
cos most of us iis our first time doiin de show
& was really scared we will screw up.
but all went well(:
godbless(:
baby came n fetch miie after de shoot(:
so sweet of her ♥
she bought miie a bunch of lovely flowers too! ♥
loves her lots lots!♥
hmm. ohhs.
we went to eat wiif 3 other models.
den cab back to my hux to put down my thiings(:
meet up wiif jasmiine at fisherman village.
den we all jet ski to kelong n hav bbq !
met alot of interestiing ppl!
n ther's a guy who catch 2 sotong n bbq it!
fresh frm de sea!!!
how cool iis tat!
n when they cut iit open.
all de iinky iinky black black thiing come out!
iit actually taste sweet . really wanted to try it but my tummy iis out biig
so nahhs , ii shall passed.
will try next time iif got chance agn.
everyone were enjoyiing de really freshy sotong. haha!!!
but be warned.
de iinky not everyone can eat ohhs.
anyone who has weak stomach cannot eat or else will hav stomachache de.
so careful ohhs(:
haha we went off arnd 10plus den cab to baby's mum hux(:
iif ii rmb clearly ii tiink we got a quarrel over smth but ii forgot abt wat lerhhs .
haha . unhappy thiings shall not be rmbed.
anw . we went to slpp quite early though. thiink arnd 11plus ohhs.
hahah iits vday n we shld hav spent it more romantically
but sadly.
iim so tired tat ii really hav no energy to do anyting lerhhs.
really sry baby ;x
ii'll make up to ue someday alrights?
ii woke up arnd 10plus ii tiink.
den huijie called miie to take over her shift cos she not feeliing well.
so early iin de morn rush off to work.
rch superdog jux iin time to clock iin at 11am
den manager tell miie to come back agn at 1pm.
nth much happen bahhs . quite normal ii tiink.
cant really much recall wat happen.
haha (:
ohhs! n after work send supper to diidii.
cos got alot of leftover den dun wana waste food .
haha n so diidii gonna be de rubbiish biin.
haha! jokiin . ii took some home too (:
alrights . ii shall end here lerhhs bahhs .
all these loong loong post thiink hav bore everyone out.
but agn ii shall note out.
to others tat dun like wordy long post.
its for miie to rmb my memories n not speciially for ue to read.
so iif ue dun liike wordy wordy loong loong post post.
den out you go go my blog blog .
bleahhs ! xD
n ue hurt my feelings ytd unknowiingly.
ue had undirectly iinsulted miie ue noe?
ue make miie feel so look down on.
mayb iits really nth to ue.
but ue shld noe iim a really very sensitive person.
ii really take ue words to my heart.
really hope ii will not hear it agn.
iim ordy hurt on sunday . our biig quarrel over de msges.
ii stiill thiink tat ue hav miisunderstood my msg but iif ue tiink ue diin
n iits my wrong den ii shall apologiise to ue den.
but ytd ue hurt my feelings agn .
even iif ue dun understand wat iim tokiing abt or duno wat iim sayiing.
ue can jux kiindly ask miie agn n not sayiing tat
' ur standard of chinese ii dun understand la'
although ii reply to ue kiiddiingly or jokiingly n ii sound fine to ue,
iin my heart iim not fiine at all.
ii jux dun wana quarrel wif ue agn ue noe ?
ue tiink tat everytime iim de one who oways try to pick up a fight,
but de truth iis tats wat ii wan de least.
for another example.
for today.
ue scold miie for beiing environmental frenly.
ue say whye shld ii when we goiin to diie someday.
yes . iits true we are goiin to diie.
but de earth hav to go on liviing for de future generations.
de trees still hav to keep on growiing for other people oxygen paper or wateva.
dun only thiink for urself can?
ue oways giiv miie excuse tat ue are born lidat ue grow up tiis way
cos tat how ur family iis.
ii understand n ii will not argue wiif ue bout tat.
but ii truely dislike ppl wastiing plastiics or papers or beiing unenvironemtal frenly.
ii jux hate it . tiis iis me . n ii found it nth wrong bout it !
wats wrong beiing cariing bout de nature?
ue tell miie wats de wrong ?
ue ask miie quit beiing like tiis .
but wat iif ii ask ue quit beiing self-centered.
wat will ue still say ?
iits not iim blamiing ue or wat.
ii jux wan to let ue noe.
whr went wrong n wat happen.
ii do love ue baby.
Labels: siianx
Friday, February 13, 2009
Happy Valentines' Day peeps (:haha tmr goiin for photoshoot n after tat goiin JET SKI !!!
so cool right ?
one of de model's friend got a jet n we be jetting to kelong to bbq!!!
how cool iis tat ? on a valentines day .
haha we can see sunset too .
so great right ?
my first valentines day is gotta be a special n unique one !!!
n today at work jiiahuii gave all de gal staffs a rose.
so sweet of her .
last year valentine she oso gave us .
thiis year giiv agn .
she really spent alot .thx so much manager (:
*loves*
♥ZHU YOU QING REN ZHONG CHENG ZUAN SHU !!!(:
♥valerieHo
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CAT` ii miiss ya too gal!!! meet up real soon kiiex. n ue haven get ur xmas frm us yet ohhs(:
ESTHER` yupps long time no see lerhhs . how ya ?.. ue n lynard still gud ? take cares ohhs(:
YUENIAN` haha happy valentines day boii (:
LITING` yupps . cam n dresses(: meet up soon soon *miisses*
BABY` happy 3rd mth & 2 days baby(: *loves*
KEVIN` haha no worries boii . iim not offended by ue jux some peeps iin sch. haha &iim used to twiitinng lerhhs . sry. n thnx for ue wishes too . all de best to ue too alrights? take care dude (:
♥valerieHo
**ohhs ohhs!!! ii jux realise today iis de frii 13th !!!haha but all seems well today(:GOD bless everyone!!! TAKECARES!!!
♥valerieHo
♥valerieHo
Labels: ♥Happy Valentines' Day
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
tmr iis me n baby 3rd mth lerhhs(:so happy .
n valentines' day comiing soon too.
kyo will be celebratiing her first valentine wif baby.
wonder how will iit be ?
wo shii mu yi daii(:
haha today ahboii suppose to meet me after sch to pass me book.
iin de end he fall asleep.
haha anyway . hope hiis thiing will be settled soon.
its not gd to skip sch so many days ue noe.
tis year ur last yr lerhhs .
better study hard kiiex?
dun make jiie jiie worry ahhs.
today kyo kana insulted by someone.
so she more determined to study harder lerhhs.
she wun let them look down on miie.
hope tiis year will giiv them a biig surprise.
haha . jiia yous!!!
&iiloveyoueversomuch
♥valerieHo
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